Nectar and Napalm

I'm happy. I promise. 

I'm pretty bummed on life but sulking has never made anything better in 23 years, so I doubt it will start at this point in my life.

I may be a Clobot, but I'm still mainly human. Going through human emotions that I am learning that everyone seems to go through, as unbelievable as they feel. 

Yesterday I bought a hobo hat from Marc Jacobs. 

Just doing my part in  supporting my fellow New Yorks coke addicted fashion designers with AIDS.

This morning I drank far too much coffee and tea.

I still cry at night. I still am forcing an appetite upon myself  when I wake up. I'm still avoiding looking at photos of my past, so that I don't sulk over my ignorance and idiocy, through that period of life.

Something tells me that the snow is finally gone for good. This deserves a mix!

I'm drowning myself in work and friends and family and art and music and sushi.

I can't wait till I throughly enjoy these things, without wondering about things and people that I have no control over. 

I'm currently surviving off of cookies, caffeine, and real film. 

My digital camera is on vacation until I'M on vacation. 

Guy Bourdin

• Studying painting in his youth, makes the minimal composition of his photographs unique.
• He did not collect his works or make any attempt to preserve them.
  
• Bourdin wanted all of his work destroyed after his death, in 1991
  
• Unfortunately for him, and fortunate for this post, the fact that he did not collect all of his work make it difficult to destroy, in the end.
  
• Bourdin was a close friend of Man Ray, who wrote the introduction for the catalogue of his first show in the late 1950's.
• Bourdin, along with Helmut Newton, is considered to be one of the most revolutionary fashion photographers of the second half of the 20th century.
  
• I feel like Bourdin is the Ying to Helmut Newtons Yang. Although his work is much more saturated and action based, it is also obvious to see that he was much more morbid and serious than Newton
• He worked with French Vouge for nearly 30 years, yet not much of his work was published.
• He is well known for his timeless photographs advertising Charles Jourdans shoe collections in the 70's.

My Bourdin inspired photographs include these:

"Our words have formed a death sentence, and I wish that we had never talked. Our hips said it all."

Last night Blender sent on a mission to shoot a few men who have preached about hating their genitals. 

Although I do really like a few albums, I was never a die hard Cursive fan, but seeing them live made me reconsider. 

I typically don't connect with live music, too often. But this show was pretty amazing.

I left Cursive feeling like I would have totally seen them again. 

Even decided that (due to the economy and not cause I'm stingy, of course) I would even pay 10 bucks to do so!

• The set was beautifully diverse
  
• The band went nuts and really enjoyed themselves
  
• The crowd was friendly and accommodating (with the exception of the girl who didn't want me standing near her at the front, even when the show hadn't started yet)
  
• I got to use my flash against Tims picnic shirt
  
• I didn't even notice they had played 20 songs starting at 11pm
  
• I even forgot I was tired!

If you listen to Cursive, you'll be able to tell that the vocals are distinctly different from your average semi screaming indie band. I feel like this photo is interesting because it illustrates how that sound got achieved. 

Instead of screaming directly into the mic, he kept screaming into his cupped hand, that was tilted into the mic. 

Such a small musical idea that is a major layer in the creativity of this band.

The actual review along with more photos that I took during last nights show, are up on Blenders Blog. 

I'm urging you to go to this blog entry by using big red letters, because I'm feeling proud and positive about my results from the night. 

This is a rare Chloe feeling. 

*I may also just be hyper emotional because to sleep deprivation. (I have yet to actually sleep since 8am, yesterday)

Vanity Trail.

1. A picture of you in your room.

2. A picture of you posing with someone you don't actually like.

3. A picture with a former crush

4. A picture of you very drunk

5. A picture of you with a parent or two.

6. A picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday.

7. The youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.

8. A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.

9. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.

10. A picture you miiiiiight have edited to make yourself look better.

11. A picture of you and a team or club you're in.

12. A picture of a night you regret.

13. A picture of you showing off a new haircut (even if it's an old haircut now).

14. A picture of you truly being yourself.

15. The most recent picture of you.

16. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.

17. A picture of you with no makeup on.

18. A picture of a time in your life that's over but you wish it wasn't.

19. A picture of a time in your life that's over and you couldn't be more thankful that it is.

20. A picture with your oldest friend.

21. A picture with your newest friend

22. A picture of you when you were anything but happy, even if you were smiling and you did your best to hide it.

23. A picture of you you had no idea was being taken.

24. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.

25. A picture of you in a fashion "DON'T"

26. A picture of you in a swimsuit - whether you love it or loathe it.

27. A picture of you taking a shot/chugging a beer/dowing some sort of mixed drink

28. A picture of yourself that you hate

29. A picture of you with someone you love

30. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you.

31. A picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day.

32. A picture when everything was changing.

33. A picture that makes your heart hurt.

34. A picture that makes your heart smile

35. A picture of one of the best nights of your life (or day).